Crush, Mirror, Sister (2023)

​A Google Drive folder still exists. 33 separate Google Docs.

 

Crush, Mirror, Sister, the longest and original doc, is 242 pages and 97,396 words. CMS (Reprise) - Charlotte Street, the final doc, was last modified on March 21, 2025. Several other docs include the initials of their intended audience in the title: CMS (Excerpt) - 3-B, CMS (Excerpt) - 4-A&L, CMS (Excerpt) - 18-C&A. They range in length from 5 pages to 150 pages. They're copied and pasted from each other in some places, rewritten in others. No two excerpts are exactly alike, and printed versions are signed like a variable edition.

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It wasn't about reaching one version of a truth for traditional printed publication that is shared with everyone. It was about grieving illusions, holding split and contradictory truths, and VULNERABILITY IN ALL CAPITAL LETTERS.

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Chapter titles include:​

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I Wish I Could Sue Instagram*

********Safe Space********

The Vibrator of it All

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

New York and Los Angeles

Dry January

The Last Piece I Wrote Before

If My Mind Were a House

The Grandma Parallel

Dear Taylor Swift,

What's So Bad About It? 

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In 2026, I've been writing an essay called Day in the Life. When it splits, you're welcome to read an excerpt. All it costs is a gmail address.